Happy (day after the fact its Christmas) Christmas everyone! :)
I hope you all had a good time and enjoyed the time with your families, etc. Mine was a CRAZYYYY time, even the weekend before.
But i felt the need to update with a bit of some new news on me blah blah blah.
About a week ago i posted a note on my personal FB page explaining the reasoning why i quit my old job (i worked as an HIV tester/facilitator for a gay mens group for a year and a half). The main reason i stated why i resigned is because of well, THIS. Attempting to do porn and having material actively online and having everyone know of it, kinda puts me in a bind, but heres my OFFICIAL statement on why:
The original note can be read here
3) Conflict of Interest.
-Now this is the part that only a select few people (and somehow others found out without my knowledge, but we all know how drama spreads in this town.) knew of what this “Conflict of Interest” was. The definition of it to me is in part with a personal career goal that i have been attempting to persue in the last 6 months. Wanna know? Adult Actor/Model. Yes. In laments terms, Pornstar. Now lets see the mouths drop. The truth is, I have maintained and upheld a secretive “alter-ego” with a blog, Twitter feed, yahoo messenger account and a Facebook Fan Page. Big shock right? The reason why this is the major part of me resigning is because people who i didn’t want to know found out about it (somehow) and i felt it was going to bite me in the ass sooner or later. At the same time it made me think. What are the repromands of exploiting myself so sexually and freely all while working at a non-profit AIDS organization working as a facilitator and sexual health counselor (and HIV tester in training)? Well it would undoubtedly ruin my image as all of them and make the group revert back to the “old days” of “sex groups, drugs, underage drinking, etc.” and that wasn’t the most pleasant thought. It also made me realize that i would corrupt the image of the agency. How? Well this is pretty common knowledge and logic. Working as those aformentioned job specifics and attempting to do porn? Yeah, it’s gonna give the agency a bad image to the community knowing that someone was trying to do that. Bite the bullet and keep it more secretive? Thats a statement that is full of bullshit right there. No way in hell could/can i hold back the depth of the internet and how people can find information on it.
-The ideal of being a facilitator and a pornstar? Two polar opposites of the spectrum being placed in a well known agency..yeah, not the best outcome to be if it hit anywhere else somehow without my knowledge.
Thats a bit about me i haven't really explained to most. But its all in the open air now, and the most funny part about posting that is that my boss of all people commented on it saying he was happy that i am doing what i want to do, and to please be safe no matter what. Caring at least :)
Onto something a bit more intimately hot.
I fucked one of my good friends the other day. And not in the figurative sense of fucking someone. I mean the whole shibang sticking my dick in their ass. :)
So now i shall attempt to allow you all to re-imagine the act vicariously through my eyes (of course i can't say his name because that would cause of very VERY bad things to happen.)
I've always had a crush on him, even when he was with a mutual friend of ours. Of course when they broke up, i totally always gushed over him telling him it and all that jazz. Onto the night it all happened.
We all were drinking and i was talking with him casually, and we had been playing beer pong. Him and his game partner had been "flaunting" themselves to distract me and my partner, and i kept saying "quit fucking teasing"
finally at one point through the night i looked at him and asked him "can we just make out so i can get over my fantasy and just move on?" he laughed and said we'll just meet downstairs later.
Turns out me looking for just a make-out session turned into a fuck session. and a rather good one at that. I slipped downstairs and closed the door and stripped down to my boxer briefs next to him and we started to kiss and touch each other slowly. He started grabbing my dick and saying "fuck me" (of course he'd seen photos and me pull my dick out before but never fully hard)
We started to trossle around the blankets and he asked if i had any lube. I quickly got up and grabbed some (i was in the dark so i picked up my flashlight and found it) and got on my knees and slathered my cock in the lube and his ass. Of course as most of you know and have seen i have a rather "large-ish" dick, so for me to be a top, i forget it sometimes.
So i of course push my dick in slowly at first and i can see his face twisting in bliss and a slight terror. I start slowly fucking him which is god damn nice, and then after a while i start to pick up the pace where i'm basically (to be so eloquently said) "raping his ass good" because basically...i was fucking him HARD and not realizing it.
He moaned and i started to make out with him to shut him up. I kept fucking him harder and pushing deeper and deeper in his nice thick ass. He kept saying "fuck me baby. oh yeah, your cock feels SOOOO good" and i got even harder. Of course i had to re-apply lube at one point because my dick got dry from the friction. He was getting close to cuming with me jerking him off and fucking him hard as can do. Finally he started saying he wanted me to cum in him, i was doing my best to hold out. Finally i hear him burst out in a huge moan as he came all over his chest and i'm STILL fucking him harder.
Of course i couldn't cum for some weird reason but i liked off his cum from his chest and sucked him off and nibbled on his foreskin a bit. Afterwards i went upstairs and jerked off.
Now! the other night he asked me..i hope nothing was/is awkward from that night, i said hell no. So he asked if we could start doing it to a more NSA thing. Umm..yeah!?
That was all before christmas. Of course Christmas day is something i'm not gonna talk about, but most everyone could tell what happened from my Twitter Feed . ;)
But now onto something i want YOUR opinions on!
Since i applied for MANHUNT's On The Hunt and never got a reply (obviously i wasn't qualified or whatnot) i talked to a friend on Twitter about my predicament. He said to potentially set up a site like Jeff at STR8CAM.com
How would you guys feel about something like that? Sound like a good idea?
I know personally i would LOVE this, because i already was thinking of doing the Amatuer Channel on XTUBE, but i don't have the time to do it right now.
But does anyone know any good web hosts, etc that i should look into? I'm hopefully gonna email Jeff about it (seeing how i wouldn't be anything near competition, it'll be good to get some help.)
But i'm off for now guys and gals (if there are any women looking at this somehow...i know one who will)
Happy Holidays, Merry (Late) Christmas and an almost coming up on New Years :)
xoxo
-Adam
